First Class ticket to Hell

alright I'm gonna say this and I hope people don't preach to me take it the wrong way. But, its that time of year when all the Catholics get the ash smudged on the foreheads. You see em in the grocery stores, work, frickin the gym as well. But I've always wonder this: What if god didn't exist?? What if all these religious beliefs were made up strategies to control people so that it was in the best interest of those in control to manage the population?? Its just, that you see science is developing cloned animals and creating new strains of diseases. Nobody from the church can explain to me why we have dinosaur bones all over the frickin planet. All this just reinforces my suspicion's.
If religion is about god, and all these people are true believers, what law, what page declares that its ok to kill people. (Example being-crusades 1 and 2, Israel and Palestinians, Northern Ireland, David Koresh, Jim Jones, and GWB and the fake war on oil).

I've lied hidden from my girlfriends my religious relationship with god, for fear of being cut loose, because I didn't subscribe to certain religious protocols that they believed in. Some of them sensed that my relationship was kind of artificial, and others I just flat out fooled the f**k out. But still, why can't a man just be open and say that I don't believe or I haven't made up my mind yet and not be treated like a avian flu carrier???